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Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Heart Storage

I've always heard how Mary treasured the things surrounding Jesus' birth and infancy in her heart and until Tucker I couldn't truly appreciate what that meant. So to make sure I remember the little things that I love most I'm going to make a list. Here are just some of my favorites...
How Tucker holds my finger when I'm feeding him his bottle.
The way only I can soothe him sometimes. He's already a bit of a Momma's boy and I LOVE it! Maybe a little too much.
How his butt fits into one hand.
The feeling of his angel soft hair.
Any noise he ever makes. Cooing, grunting or sometimes even his cries are cute.
His weight against my chest. It is the most soothing feeling to feel us breath together.
How I feel to see others love my baby. Especially my grandparents and parents. It's crazy how a baby can melt hearts and conquer life long prejudices in just a few seconds.
His studious expressions as he investigates new people, places and situations. (Which seems like almost every time he wakes up. Poor guy always in a new place)
His soft cheek against mine.
His response to my voice when others are holding him.
How he loves me to sing him to sleep. He already calms down when we sing songs.
How tight he grips my finger. That was the first way I got to touch him as the nurse cleaned him off in the delivery room so I think that will always be a special feeling to me.
When he's hungry or just wants his paci, how he'll suck on my shoulder or neck until I can get what he wants in his mouth.
When I know/think he's hungry my test is to kiss close to his mouth and if he is hungry he will turn his head and try to suck on my lips. Precious kisses!

And my sweet boy is waking so that's all for now. I'm sure this will be a running list.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Two in one day!

I know I just posted but my baby is sleeping good this evening so...

I came across this on another blog and thought I'd humor myself for a few minutes. Go ahead and try it yourself...it will either make you say, "wow I've done a lot of things in my life!" OR "wow - I really need to get out more." In my case...it was the latter. Go through and highlight the ones that apply to you!

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band...sang with one but I don't think it counts
4. Visited Hawaii...HONEYMOON
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disney
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sung a solo
11. Bungee jumped or cliff jumped ...ah Vic Falls. One of my fondest memories.
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a thunder and lightning storm
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child...Biggest blessing of my life. Seriously.
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables...I sometimes think I would like that but...
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked... I don't know if being picked up and riding with a scary man to a gas station counts but it happened in college
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill...oh the days of dating my husband. I was NOT a good employee.
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a marathon...don't understand the motivation to do something so crazy!
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run...yeah right do you know me?
32. Been on a cruise...great college memories! And we're going again in August with the fam.
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied...livin' on love baby!
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing...thank you Steven Charles
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David in person
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa...One of those experiences that literally made me who I am.
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling...another illegal activity supervised, no initiated by my mother.
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater...one of our favorite Chickasha activities
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies...oh thin mints sound sooo delicious!
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason...that's the only time I get them. The hubs doesn't like to be predicatble
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Been sky diving...on the bucket list. I wanted to do it before motherhood, guess that didn't work out.
66. Visited a Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been fired from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been a passenger on a motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book...do the ones you make online count? I've done that.
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car...we just got a new to us car that we LOVE. Hooray for the Volvo!
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year’s Eve
86. Visited the White House
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. Had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Gotten a tattoo
94. Had a baby...kinda. That's an upcoming post. All about my un-pregnancy.
95. Seen the Alamo in person...Senior Trip 2001
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

Well that was fun for me if no one else. Hope you enjoyed it!

A New Summer

This summer feels different. It is going to be different, at least for me. Summer for the Gordon's usually means camps, kids, trips, no sleep and something going all the time and for one of us it still will be. But for Momma G all of that has changed. It was inevitable and I knew it was coming. However, that knowledge hasn't lessened the blow.
As soon as we found out Tucker was coming I backed out of all of my summer commitments without hesitation. Summer is now here and Super Summer is next weekend and I'm not going. for real. I guess I just feel left out in some ways. In youth ministry summer is our busy season. It's the time where relationships flourish and memories are made. I don't know what that looks like with an infant. Tucker has changed everything about our life and we love it, this piece of the puzzle is just harder somehow.
From Chris's perspective - he is bummed because he will be apart from us so much of the time and I won't be by his side for every event. He isn't as excited as usual because he still HAS to do all that we usually do together. When you spend the majority of your time working together it's hard when half of the team is missing.
Usually by this point in the year I have been at the church at least three days a week for several weeks. I have to do lists in order. People lined up to help. Copies of forms color coded. Office and medical boxes ready for trips. But not this year. I haven't even figured out how to shower everyday little alone how to accomplish life as it used to be. I'm not complaining. I LOVE getting to be a Momma and I wouldn't trade it. All of this is just part of the transition process and I don't know that having nine months instead of three weeks to get ready would've made any difference for this leg of the journey.

Saturday, May 22, 2010

First Doctor's Visits

We have an AMAZING doctor. He and Chris grew up together and he's been SUPER supportive and helpful throughout different stages of our adoption process. We were so excited to introduce him to Tucker and also see how our boy was doing.
When Tucker was born he weighed 7 lbs, 15 oz. While in the hospital he lost down to 7.10 but was already eating very well. He was 20 inches long at birth.
At his two week appointment he weighed 8 lbs 5 oz and had grown to 21.25 inches. I couldn't believe how much he'd grown in just two weeks.
At Tuck's one month appointment I knew my chunky monkey had gained weight. He weighed 10 lbs, 8 oz! Are you kidding me? I couldn't believe he'd gained over two pounds in two weeks! He had only grown 1/2 inch but our doctor was very please with Tucker and said not to worry about his weight. I guess it'll all balance out in time.
His other MAJOR achievement is when he was 13 days old he showed us that he could roll over from his belly to his back. We were at my mom's and were having some tummy time while we were sitting in the floor chatting. He did it and we both were amazed! I didn't realize how early he was doing this until our one month appointment when we told our doctor. He LOVES to be his stomach and since he can roll over we're letting him sleep that way most of the time. He is now sleeping in five hour stretches at night which is SUPER nice, especially for me.
We are so glad he's adjusting well and growing strong. We had heard a lot about attachment and adjustment with adopted babies and their forever families so I had been very concerned about that. But Dr. Whinery said that unattached-unadjusted babies don't gain weight and do as well as Tucker is. We're so glad it's obvious he's happy! Because we couldn't be more smitten with our precious boy!

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Tucker's Birth Story

I know this is a long time coming. So without further adieu...
TUCKER IS HERE! His birth was indescribable in words. It was the most emotional, amazing experience of my life. The biggest testament to the faithfulness of our God and a beautiful picture of what God did for us when we accept his salvation. I cannot put into words the love I feel for Tucker and the bond I have with his Birth Mom, K.
The day of his birth was surreal. It was as if time didn't really exist, at least in it's normal parameters. At times it felt like it was lasting forever and then at other points it felt like it was speeding by and I wouldn't be able to absorb all that was happening.
Thursday morning I got up and we packed for a couple of days stay in Purcell. We needed to make a few returns and get some last minute items before Tucker got here. Before going to Purcell we were going to Lawton to go to K's last weekly doctor appointment. We were about 30 minutes from our house when I got a text asking me to call her. I did, in the worst reception area of the entire drive from Sayre to Lawton, and got bits and pieces. She thought her water had broken. She was at the hospital getting checked. She'd let me know any news as soon as she knew something. Chris sped up and called a Highway Patrol friend and we began contacting family. We made the last hour and a half of the drive in about a hour. When we arrived at the hospital, around 2 p.m, we discovered her water had indeed broken and we spent the afternoon waiting and calling family and friends. I couldn't believe it was really happening.
By dinner time Team Tucker had arrived. My mom, sisters, Nana, Dad and Chris' Mom. So had our adoption coordinator, Dierdra. She suggested we all go to dinner and take our time out of the hospital. We spent about two hours away and that was all I could take. When we got back K had made little progress. She was dilating about 1/2 a centimeter an hour. She progressed this way until she reached a 7. At that point things really started picking up. Also around that time I had a kidney stone attack. I had to take a pain pill, do some walking and drinking and hugging a chair. But as things picked up that pain quickly became a non-issue.
K's foster mom was supposed to be her support in the delivery room. She was allowed to have three people in there and she had chosen Chris & I along with her mom. But when things were getting serious she couldn't get a hold of her mom. So K added my sister, who is a photographer, to the bunch. This allowed us to have documentation of the entire birth.
Also because her mom wasn't there I got to step in and be K's birth coach. I held her hand, wiped her faced, got in her face, helped her breath and even held her leg as she pushed. It was more then I ever even dared to pray for. I still can't really put into words the bond and the emotions of those hours I spent with K as we both did all we could to usher Tucker into the world safely and quickly. She was a trooper!
The nurse finally told her she could start pushing and got the doctor on call a little before 2 a.m. When she started pushing the doctor realized her cervix wasn't all the way out of the way. So she had to stop and rearrange and lay all funky to get it to move out of the way. This was the intense part. She wanted to push so bad and I had to keep her from it. After about 30 minutes she got to try again.
The team came back in and we all repositioned ourselves for Tucker's grand entrance. She pushed through one ten-count and as she started with the second ten-count the nurse said, "Look he's crowning." Before Chris could take the three steps from where he was standing to the bed Tucker was here. The doctor even looked a little startled.
This was it.
This was the moment.
We were parents. All three of us.
Immediately we all three, well four including my sister, were crying. From the moment he was here K said, "there's your son, your son is here." I leaned over and she and I hugged for a long moment as we cried in celebration of Tucker's arrival. Relishing that moment together. That accomplishment together. The love that we both felt for Tucker as his mothers, even though our roles are so different.
As soon as Tucker was clean I got to put on his very first diaper and pick him up. I was already so in love! Chris got to hold him second and then he passed him to K. She looked him over and kissed and loved on him. She then graciously turned and handed him back to me.
After a few quite moments just us, Team Tucker couldn't wait any longer. You would have never known it was 3 a.m. by seeing everyone's excitement and tears. He was passed around between our family and then our family of three made our way to the nursery. This was a part of the process I never thought about because normally the momma has just delivered a baby, but since I hadn't just birthed a child I got to be in there.
We gave him his first bath, which he didn't enjoy much, and by 5 a.m. we got to wheel our baby into our hospital room and just be a family.
Chris slept a little and I laid wide awake and just marveled at this precious baby boy.
WELCOME TO THE WORLD AND OUR FAMILY TUCKER WILLIAM GORDON!
7 lbs. 15 oz, 20 in. long born at 2:50 a.m.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Waiting, Painting, Showers & Stones

There is not any monumental news to report. We've just been working like crazy the last week to get all the little details in order for Tucker. Our birth mom has been having back contractions for several days now so it could really be any time. She thought she was going into labor Sunday night but turned out to be false labor. So we are just on call to head to Lawton at ANY moment.
Last week we painted the nursery and it turned out really cute! I can't wait for our bedding to come in and to put the final touches on the room. The paint came out a little darker then I wanted but when it was all sat and done it looks great. We did stripes on one wall with a monogram done by my sister's friend. I LOVE it! It just adds so much personality to the room. When we started looking a baby boy stuff I thought I wanted to go pretty traditional, but it turns out I don't so much love the pastel "baby" colors. Tucker will be able to grow into his room and the room has a great vibe to it. Chris and I have found ourselves just hanging out in there waiting on Tucker to make the room his own. It was a lot of work, but I think the end result was worth it.
Last weekend our church and our students had showers for us. On Saturday the whole church gave us so much stuff! It was really a cool day. Our families came and got to see the nursery and meet some of our church family. We are so blessed to be apart of FBC Sayre. We have been in some places that were not so great so we really appreciate having a church home and family. Finding that is different when you are on staff at a church. We are just blessed to have found that. Tucker has so many grandma's already and we're so glad he will be loved by so many! On Sunday night our youth threw us a shower. All by themselves! They had food, cake, drinks, games and gifts. They did an AMAZING job! I'd put our kids up against anyones. They are all so excited to be apart of Tuck's life and already love him so much. They got us TONS of diapers, wipes and other really practical things that are great. One of our 8th girls even MADE Tucker a blanket...I cried when I opened it. I mean just super sweet! So I think as far as "stuff" goes we're covered.
On Sunday morning about 5 a.m. I woke up having some major pain and I knew I was trying to pass my 3rd kidney stone. I waited a couple of hours until Chris's alarm went off and told him I thought we needed to go to the ER because my doctor had told me they weren't going to pass on their own. We went, got a shot and a script for pain meds and came home. I tried to rest until time for our shower that night. I went to the shower and shortly after we got home I started puking and we decided to go back to the ER. I was miserable to say the least. We got the call from our Birth Mom as I was laying on the gurney in the ER. When she called I just cried! I didn't want to be in the delivery room feeling like I was dying while our son was being born! So we waited and heard she wasn't in labor. We were super relieved. They admitted me to the hospital and we stayed until around lunch time yesterday. The diagnosis is that I have a good sized stone at the top of my uritor and until it moves they can't do anything because the procedure that I need isn't cover by our insurance and costs $25,000 so our only option is to wait. Now this wouldn't be great news at any time but when your baby is coming sometime in the next week it really presents a problem! I know there is a reason for all of this but it's hard to see. Please pray that this stone passes quickly and on its own! I'm in pain but my larger concern is having to deal with all of this after Tucker comes or when he comes.
I think that's pretty much it! I'll upload some nursery and shower pictures soon.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Ultrasound

Yesterday my Mom and I got to see our Tucker on the ultrasound. It was pretty amazing and it wasn't even one of the fancy ones, just a regular one.

We got to see his profile.

What his little foot looks like,

His face. How much he weighs right now, & that he is DEFIANTLY a boy! (I'll leave that picture off to save future humiliation) It was such a fun experience and I'm so glad I got to share it with my mom.
Golf season has put a slight damper on Chris getting to do everything with me, which I understand but still makes me a little sad. I'm used to doing everything with him because his job schedule is pretty flexible so it's rough on me when he can't get away. But he had a tournament yesterday in Weatherford so it was just one of those things. (Got 3rd place! Way to go Coach G & Boys)
However last night he decided to drive to Purcell because he couldn't wait to see me and pictures of Tucker. He was so cute when he got here last night. He went straight to the computer and had me explain what he was looking at as he looked through the pictures one at a time over and over. He's a cute Daddy-to-be!
After the ultrasound my mom and I made a Hobby Lobby stop and got several really fun/cute things! I got to pick out fabric that my Aunt Teresa is going to use to make Tuck a quilt and it's uber cute! I also stocked up on some half off frames and several other little projects for Tuck's Welcoming Parties. This baby shopping is so fun! Few things are actually as good as you imagine them to be, but this truly is! We're spending today with family, although I'm sure some more shopping might sneak in too!